you know that scenario; the carrot is hanging in front of your nose - you come closer and closer and you feel like you just have to grab it. BUT everytime you grab it - the carrot just goes that bit further away you came closer to it.
thats exactly how i feel at the moment. its the same with every harder boulder i tried during the last time. if it's mithril, riverbed sds, newbaseline, entlinge, dreamtime, the fisch-project... on every boulder i feel pretty good, and just minor improvements woud may leed to sucess. but everytime i make some progress, the carrot is moving too - it drives me CRAZY. if these boulders woud just feel WAY to hard, this woud not bother me at all, i woud just move on. but if i feel close, i have to try, again.... again.... again.... and again..., arrrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.